Before twitter there were fan letters: Dear Mr. Redford

November 12, 1973 Dear Bob  Mr. Redford,I just had to write to tell you how hot and sexy talented, I think you are.  Laura and I bickered over who was more desirable — Robert Redford or Clint Eastwood — with as much fervor as we girls once debated who our favorite Beatle was, Paul or John, George or Ringo. Laura's mother, tiny Corky, curled up in her easy chair with a ciggie and a cup of tea, pronounced both actors 'tall drinks of water'. This was so long before  water became such a desirable commodity that we actually had to buy it by the bottle, back in the seventies when water was still free even in the once desert lands of Los Angeles, that I never quite understood the praise. But yes, Redford could put his shoes under my bed any time, as our mothers might have said, mostly about men whose paths they would likely never cross. I had it so bad for Robert Redford after seeing The Way We Were ; wishing I were Barbara Streisand with her impossibly long eleg

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The First Time I Saw Paris [memoir]

That's me with the glasses and the sensible shoes. Look at the height of my mother's heels! 

The first time I saw Paris it was December, 1958 and I was five. The old family photos show that when it wasn't dripping wet, the sky was a dull steely grey. This wasn't Paris when it sizzles, this was Paris when it drizzles. Cold. Miserable. Could it be that it just looks that way because the photos are black and white? Could be, but we had just left Tripoli where the sun blazed all year long; that wintry Parisian nip must have been shocking.

Little did I know my parents were about to take me out of the fire into the frying pan, or to be more accurate, out of the fire into the icebox. After several years of living in North Africa, we were on our way to Canada. Canada where we would arrive, by boat, in Halifax, Nova Scotia in the middle of winter. Average temperature: Below freezing. Brrrr, baby, brrrr!

But first, that stopover in Paris. My parents dragged us everywhere, from the Louvre to the Palace of Versailles where we had the grounds to ourselves. My paltry memory of the Louvre museum is pure speculation, derived from my mother's tale of having to wash and dry a nappy on the radiator because Nancy had wet herself and somehow in those pre-Pampers days, my mother was without a backup cloth diaper. I can almost smell that humid bathroom, the radio hissing urine. My poor mother, dying for a taste of French culture, three small children whining at every turn.

It was 1973 before I would go to Paris again. I was twenty and my sister Nancy —Oui, like the city! we would come to say—now completely potty-trained at sixteen, was my traveling companion. We stayed at a dirt-cheap pension in the Pigalle and had our first taste of real French croissants at an outdoor cafe on the Champs Élysées. Starving, we demolished the entire tray. The price of the bill took our breath and much of our daily budget away. We hit the Louvre but had little patience for the crowds fighting for a glimpse of the Mona Lisa. Our parents had a giclee print hanging in our apartment back in L.A.; we were less interested in seeing DaVinci's masterpiece up close and in person than we were in sitting at an outdoor cafe, a reasonably priced outdoor cafe, sipping café au lait, and checking out the cute French boys walking by. The Palace of Versailles? No time; we couldn't wait to get to the south of France and the beaches of the Cote d'azur.

The last time I saw Paris was the summer of '89. In my mid-thirties I was there with my friend Mindy who was a decade younger. I was back to being single after breaking off a long-term relationship and Mindy decided to join me on my two month tour of Europe. It was the Bicentennial, the 200th anniversary of the French Revolution and like all the other people pressed into Paris that July, we were excited to be there for the big Bastille day parade. The city was celebrating and the air was electric, the streets filled with a jumble of English and French, German and Italian, the sound of French horns and the steady moan of police sirens. The cafes were full, the café au lait, frothy and delicious, the simple crepes made with sugar and Grand Marnier, intoxicating.

We were having a marvelous time, feeling free, liberated, taking goofy photos and enjoying the rush of just being there. Having a giggle together, like we did with the group of military guys we ran into at the Palace of Versailles. There they were, in their black and white uniforms. There we were, in our basic black. A photo seemed inevitable. And then we were gone. Poof. It was nothing. A brief brush with flirtation, a laugh and au revoir. Fun. We were having fun. I hadn't thought about men, the possibility of meeting them, the perils of what traveling with a much younger woman, would do to my psyche. Admittedly, French men still held a certain je ne sais quoi. The accents, that wiry body type, the dark hair, the lean and hungry look, the devil in their eyes. Or is it just wishful thinking on my part that all French men look like Alain Delon and Louis Jordan? Perhaps Gerard Depardieu is really the Gallic norm.

We were having a blast until a man approached us on the Champs Élysées. I should say until a man approached Mindy, my sexy younger friend with the dancer's body and the tousled mane of dark curls. Forty-something, with a rat like face, this Frenchman wanted nothing to do with me.
"Tell your mother you'll meet her later" he whispered too loudly in Mindy's ear. "Come, let's go somewhere for a coffee.
She didn't of course. She told him to take a hike but I was mortified, wounded. Her mother! I knew I looked older than her, of course I did, I was older than her, but did I really look old enough to be her mother? It was a sour taste that all the café au lait in Paris couldn't wash out. The wound I got when a stray firecracker hit my leg at the Bicentennial celebrations later that night didn't help. That one was easy to mend though, a trip to the medical tents set up by the Croix Rouge and I was good as new. That other wound cut more deeply. Luckily Paris was just the first stage of our adventure; we had the entire summer ahead of us.

 Vive la liberté!


Do you remember the first time you saw Paris? The last?
Isn't it stupid that all these years later I still remember that awful man? 
Do you have any travel memories you'd like to forget?

For mostly happier thoughts of France, 
check out my pal Paulita's Dreaming of France meme.


  1. Sim, I love your Paris memories! That guys was totally wrong. From the picture, I can see that you looked beautiful and that guy was wrong, wrong, wrong. Today, you could just slip your hand in hers and make some disparaging comment about men in general as if you were lesbians! The picture in front of the fountain looks like the Friends gang visited Paris! Your mother's shoes! I wore hiking boots when I was there with my 2-year-old. Diapers on the radiator in Louvre. Love all the details. Here’s my Dreaming of France meme

    1. It may be hard to tell from the picture by the fountain but I'm wearing flats, not a heel was packed! And thnx for the moral support Paulita.

  2. Oh Sim I love your tales of Paris & what an interesting life you have led. Love the photos too! Especially that they are in BW which definitely adds to the charm. It's so funny what we tend to remember when we travel. Never mind that man's is clear you girls were having the time of your lives!

    1. Thanks Sally! Writing this post I also came across a couple of photos of me hugging a gargoyle on top of Notre Dame. I can't quite believe I did that; maybe I'll share that for next week's Dreaming of France Lol!

  3. This story still sends a thrill through me. The first time I was in Paris, well, I was on a group tour, but my college boyfriend was on the same tour and I went all the way for the first time in Paris. I haven't written about this, but I figured on a comments page maybe isn't as public so that my children won't read about it.

    1. Now there’s a memory! You also bring up an interesting point about how much to take our children into account when we write. It’s tricky.

  4. I first saw Paris in 1992 and then again a fleeting visit in 2012. We are going in 2 weeks (Apr 27) and I have a bucket list of things I want to do.


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